Sometimes it’s hard to trust God. I don’t just mean times when everything in life seems to be going wrong. Sometimes we just get into the habit of occupying our thoughts with all kinds of things that are none of our business. Psalm 131 is a good picture of childlike trust. David compares himself to a weaned child: a child no longer a baby, no longer considering the mother’s breast her most important attribute. A weaned child is a content child, enjoying mother’s company. Here is one of a number of passages where God is compared not to a father, but to a mother.
But if the second verse provides the image of trusting God, the first verse points the way to the substance of trust. What are the great matters or things that David says are too lofty or profound for him?
When I meditate on all my troubles or all the troubles I see around me and feel sorry for myself, when I feel like God doesn’t love me or isn’t doing what I need, when I am so consumed by what is wrong that I can see nothing good, I am judging God. I can’t trust God if I’m viewing myself as judge and him as defendant. Anxiety and cynicism are too profound for me.
When I meditate on what’s wrong with other people or whom to blame for what’s wrong in the world, I put myself in the role of judge. No one else would ever put me there! God is the judge. I can’t trust him to be the judge if I am trying to take on his rightful role for myself. Faultfinding and criticism are too profound for me.
When I try to figure things out for myself and neglect prayer, I will surely fail. “The secret things belong to the Lord our God, but those things which are revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may do all the words of this law” (Deuteronomy 29:28-29, NKJV). Seeking anything apart from revelation is too profound for me.
So what can I meditate on? The revealed things. What God has spoken through Scripture. What God has spoken to my heart. Or at least I can meditate on God’s word when I can stop my heart from being haughty long enough to listen for his voice. The majesty and wonder of God are not to profound for me.
Sometimes it’s hard to trust God, because sometimes I let my mind follow after anxiety, cynicism, faultfinding, and criticism. When I can turn all of that off and think on God and what he has accomplished through Jesus Christ, then I can enter into trust and contentment.
Originally published in The All-Purpose Guru on September 1, 2009