“This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us.”–I John 5:14, NIV
I spent years, decades, comparing what I prayed for with what I got. I struggled that whole time with trying to find scriptures to “claim” so that what I asked for was according to God’s will. All that happened was that, little by little, I began to doubt that God loved me.
More recently, I have done something else. I have asked God to remake my thoughts. I have asked God to conform me to the image of Jesus. I no longer have an expectation of what a blessing has to be before I’ll recognize it as such.
It all started almost ten years ago, when I finally decided to believe that Jesus loves me simply because the Bible says so. It all started when I stopped looking for evidence of his love in my circumstances.
After several years of peaceful, and perhaps complacent, contentment, the last two years have held devastating loss. Through it all, I have not been tempted to doubt God’s love again. It looks like God answered some of my prayers from years ago in a way I could have never anticipated.